Hello everybody out there!!! It's been so friggin long (at least in internet time) since I've written in this blog that I thought that was the most appropriate way to address everyone this morning. I''ve been so goddamn exhausted lately from working so much, two different jobs, back-to-back, Monday thru Friday, that I thought I could handle writing in my blog late at night but not so. Last night, by the time I got home, got outta my workclothes, made some tea (which by the way was thrown out this morning) and came online to read messages, notes and skim through the daily posts, I was just too tired to do much of anything. In fact, I even went to bed early - 12 a.m. - which is somewhat early for us night-owl types (usually I am bed no later than 12:30 to 1 a.m. most nights). I know, I know, some folks will tell me "Well Spice, you need to go to bed and get more sleep!" But what those very same people don't realize is that when you work long hours like this, if you dont give yourself at least a good hour or so to unwind before you turn in for the night, you cant sleep anyways. Yeah, it's true. But I slept straight through and am now up early enough to write something before I head into work for another long day/night but thankfully not as long as most days are, instead of working from 9 or 10 a.m. till 10 p.m., it'll be from 11 a.m. to 9 p.m., plus I am gonna attempt to autopost on here today too - that too should be interesting, to say the least...lol.
So, this piece is gonna be one of those sidenotes/afterthoughts pieces that I've done regarding previous entries as well as thoughts on unaddressed subjects such as the following. Birthdays. I believe one or more people may become a bit perturbed at me following my comments on this subject only because - might as well come clean now - I have been dishonest about my actual birthdate and no, I was not intentionally being deceitful when I listed that birthdate, its just that when I created HivSpice years ago I naturally gave him a fake birthdate so as to, once again, protect my real identity. Actually, with the giant shield of anonymity that this name represents, that shouldn't be a surprise nor a shock to anyone. And not to justify my downright LIE about my birthdate, it truly is minute in the major scheme of things. Be that as it may, an actual FB friend was the inspiration for this confession because when she first friended me a coupla weeks back I made it a point to say to her "Oh look, we have the same exact birthdays, kewl!" Oh this woman, she is just so damn extatordinary to say the least. Loving, compassionate, great strength of character and I swear, she's so intelligent, captivating and passionate about anything she talks about that you just wanna pour yourself a cup of coffee, pull up a chair next to her and say "I'm ready Master, please fill me with thy knowledge, please!!!" If she reads this and figures out that it is her that I am writing about, I must say this to her - I'm sorry for lying to you, I apologize, I was only trying to protect myself. I hope you'll understand."
But, even with this cat being outta the bag as they say, I will continue to pay one of the prices for being Spice - oh look, I made a play on words, and this early in the morning, and without coffee too!! - forever celebrating my birthday alone. Yep, sad, so very sad. People will be wishing me "Happy Birthday!!!" months from now, months after I've already turned 45. Then again, its been this way for years now, but now that I've connected with so many genuine folks on Facebook, it's be so fun and nice to receive those wishes on the correct day, ya know? Lesson learned here? When creating an extension of your real identity online as I have done, please do yourself a giant favor and just list your real birthdate, okay? Its perfectly fine to protect your real identity but don't strip too much of the real data away from yourself or you might end up dealing with a tiny mess such as this one year after year like I have. Sagiattarius? Are you kidding me? Shit, I wish I was a Sagiatrrius, I'd probaly be one helluva lesser worrywart as well as be more compatible with more of the other astrological signs! I've used this as an example, I personally believe everything depends on how people connect with each other, keeping it real is my motto, but to each his/her own.
Defriending. This subject has always been a giant sorespot for me because in all my months of being on FB, I've only had to defriend one to two people the entire time, whereas it's been done to me about 3 or 4 times and in each of those times I can truthfully say it was due to the other person stating "Well, I have a problem with the anonymous thing, so I cant be your friend." Hey, people are definitely entitled to their own opinions but the ironic thing about it was this - I distinctly remember those 3 or 4 individuals "Friend Request"ing me first. People are just so insecure these days, and in some cases justifiably so, but in my case? I've never put it this way before but - Sweethaht, you're safer with me than you are in the arms of your very own mother." No shit, the only time I am ever ever mean and vicious is when someone is throwing uninstigated crap my way or if someone corners me figuratively or literally.
Those people out there who "defriend" others due to ultimatums need the living bejesus slapped out of them. I'm serious. If anyone ever defriends you because they tell you "Well, if you dont get rid of this-or-that person as your friend then I'm not going to be your friend" then you need to tell that individual to go fuck themselves with a sawed-off broom handle covered in about 3 to 4 layers of extra-coarse sandpaper. Excuse me people, but we are all suppose to be mature, rational, logical adults here on Facebook and beyond and if you're going to be acting in an immature, irrational and prepubescent manner then you need to excuse yourself from the rest of us and go back to middle and repeat your younger educational years all over again, okay? If you have a problem with someone, confront them about it. Try to resolve it. If it cant be resolved, then that's the time for YOU, not your other friends, to delete people as friends because if you and the other party involved cannot reach a mutual resolution then you need to do what more people even in real life need to do - simply walk away and move on with your life. I'm serious, because just as in real life there will be times when you run into people that no matter how hard you attempt to reason with them, no matter what you say or do, you are always gonna be the bad guy, always the person who is in the wrong. For them? Give 'em the ole' heave-ho, because it's just not worth the agony, trust me.
One more realization I've had in the last coupla weeks or so. I love flirting with guys just as much as the next gay guy does but for those guys out there who have indicated they want to take it to the next level with me and get to know me better, I've noticed a definite trend - things rarely make it beyond that flirting stage. At first I thought it was because of my name and the fact that most folks can only deal with my anonymity to a certain degree. Hey, I will not judge anyone on that count, if thats how you feel, I'm actually glad that you're being honest with yourself and with me. Keeping it real, that's all I ask of anyone. But now I realize what's really happening with those guys who want to get to know me better is this - once they start talking to me, having actual conversations with me, they begin to realize that I am truly indeed a real person like themselves with a real life, and they simply lose interest. They become instantly bored with me when they realize that I am not an internet myth or legend or whatever you wanna call it, that I am a real person - and they simply can't handle that. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that someone who can handle that wont come along - I pray to God he does, and sooner versus later - but as I said eons ago, this name will truly sort the real mean from the not-so-real mean; after all, it's already doing just that without me having to do anything but be myself. So for those who wanna flirt with me and shoot the shit, hey, let's have fun but as for getting to know me better? No offense guys but I will definitely believe it when I see it. Thank you for reading and have a great day everyone :)
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