Usually I dont like to talk about the really personal stuff that's taking place in my life until AFTER the fact, until after the hurdle has been overcome and there is some degree of wisdom to admit to myself and/or share with others. But this time around I'm making an exception because with working as much as I am nowadays, especially with extra hours at my 2nd job thrown into the mix, I dont always get the chance to get online and unwind like I use to do. However, that may change in the near future.
My current employers (on my main job) have requested that I go to Connecticut in the next week or so to help revamp, and thus save, their only residential center there. They're not certain yet if I'll be there longer than the entire month of August but the reason they've asked me to do this is because years ago when they first opened the place, I was one of the principal players in getting the place up-n-running smoothly. They know they can count on me to get the job done and although most people in my field would be honored by such a request, I do have some mixed feelings regarding this temporary move.
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Of course, there are some fairly beneficial perks to all of this - I'll be making a bit more extra money than what I'm currently making; all my living accommodations will be paid for; and, I'll get use of a company car (with limited personal mileage of course), so maybe not all is doom-n-gloom. In addition, even though I'll be working longer hours than at my position here in Boston, at least I wont have to be concerned with going to a 2nd job and getting home so damn late at night. Of course, there is the flip side of all this....
When I return from CT, I'll still have my current position, no worries or stresses there; however, chances are very hight that I'll be losing my 2nd job because right now it's high-peak summer season and Massachusetts relies a helluva lot more on its tourism industry during than most folks realize. I did talk to my supervisor there last night and explained the whole situation to her and let's just say she's definitely notta happy camper. She's extremely pleased with the work I do and the fact that I'm very professional yet personable with all the hotel guests. She told me she'd love to hire a temp and wait for my return after August, but she also let me know that if she goes that route and it doesnt work out for them, then they're the ones who will lose out. Hey, I totally understand where she's coming from, I mean, after all, it is a part-time job, it's not my main bread-butter job but still, those extra bucks from it make all the difference in the world when it comes to paying my monthly bills on-time. So I guess it's one of those wait-n-see scenarioes.
Yet another downside to all of this is my mild contempt for Connecticut in general. Several years ago I lived there for a brief period of time when I helped the very same company open the original site. There may be alotta loyal Connecticut residents who simply adore their home-state; but, personally, I thought Connecticut sucked major-big-time! Bottom line - it's simply too isolating for me. I still consider the short time I did live in that state the Universe's punishment for my continous bitching about growing up in several of the backwoods towns my Dad was stationed at. I remember very clearly all those years ago, complaining to myself and saying "No place on earth could be as bad as this!!" yet when I went to Connecticut, boy, did I eat those words. Please do yourself a favor and try not to bitch about where you are now because it could always always be worse further on down the line. No shit.
Give me mountain after mountain of nothing but man-made concrete superstructures; give me row after row of crowded subway cars and city buses filling the morning and evening airs with that distinct, pungent odor of exhaust fumes; give me a Dunkin Donuts on every street corner and old rich white ladies hollering outta their BMW's, "Get outta my way you sonnsabitches!!" or "Hang up the goddamn phone and drive motherfucker!!"; give me prostitutes (the high-class ones, of course) standing on the street corners of Copley Plaza waiting for their dates to arrive; give me Cambridgeside Galleria lit up like a Christmas Tree every single night of the year, it's twinkling lights competing with those of all the tiny towns dotted around Boston Harbor; and, most of all, give me all those lights all at once, as well as every sound and noise connected with them, because THAT is what LIVING is all about - lights, sounds, constant perpetual motion in every direction. That's what LIFE is really all about - or at least for me it is.
I'll know for certain exactly when I'll be leaving to go to Connecticut, as well as returning from it, in the upcoming days. Right now, at this current point in my life, the pro's of going there really do outweigh the con's when it all boils down to it. Aside from going online at night after work, I have to figure out how to battle the isolation of temporarily living there again, especially since my transporation will be limited when I am off-duty. I'd love to give a giant shout-out to all the peeps who live in CT and let them know that I'll be in this-or-that area and perhaps I will yet by the same token I certainly dont expect folks to drop whatever they're doing and re-arrange their lives just because I'll be in town during a certain timeframe. Either way, it'd be nice to have this all remedied before I get there. I will keep folks updated on what happens with this Connecticut business and as always, thank you for reading.
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