Normally around this time of year, the first week of the New Year, alotta blog writers will pen a piece regarding their own thoughts and recollections of the Old Year versus the New Year and though I have done such pieces previously in this blog, I've decided to not do that this year because right now I have a lot on my mind and when I have an overcharge (for lack of a better description) of issues on my platter, I simply cant concentrate on writing any new major-sized pieces. This will pass, it always does; but, for right now, I'd like to make a footnote or two on the piece I recently wrote, "CyberJilt."
Upon reviewing "CyberJilt" (December 27th, 2011) a few times myself, I've come to a definite conclusion about something. I have decided that from here on out, should there be anyone out there online who chooses to get to know me better and more personally, that person and myself will go through that process; but, not on my HivSpice account. We will get to know each other better via the auspices of my real account because quite frankly, my Spice account is simply too much of a hotbed (no pun intended!) of activity and/or controversy to make time for the more personal fraternizing associated with getting to know someone one-on-one.
Plus, as I indirectly stated in "CyberJilt," I'm the person someone would be waking up next to the following morning, not HivSpice. Granted, we're one-in-the-same as I so clearly emphasized in "CyberJilt" yet dealing with each of us is a totally different ballgame, so to say. Though that last sentence may cause some innuendo chuckling to go on, I think everyone out there should get the picture on that.
"CyberJilt" was definitely a lesson for me in regards to what happens when you open your heart up a bit too much and choose to trust a bit too much. In my situation, especially with my health, I just cant afford to expose myself to sucha energy loss like that on any continual basis. Unless, of course - and this is either the optimistic side of my personality, or the hopeless romantic within me, or maybe a combination of both(!) - someone really genuine, sincere and mentally mature knocks on my door and asks to come in. Hey, life isnt worth living if you dont take chances, if you dont expose yourself to risks beyond your own comfort zone. At least that's what I've always believed.
Like alotta folks out there, I am simply someone who likes to explore all the possibilities when it comes to running into that someone special who will really REALLY rock the socks off of my world. Doesnt make a dumb or a bad person outta me, it just means I took a chance and this most recent attempt simply didnt work out. But, that's not to say that 2012 is gonna be that way - not by any means. We all are living life and we just gotta greet each new day, each New Year, with alotta promise and a damn good attitude, because in spite of everything else that takes place in our lives, sometimes those things are all it takes to live life as fully and as best as we can. Happy New Year of 2012 everyone and as always, thank you for reading.
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